Blown Away

I get that every once in a while. Blown away that is. And that’s because I’ll never understand certain things. A friend, and they’ll see this later (you know who you are), told me the other day that after everything I’ve been through, and there’s a lot I never go into here online because I just don’t think certain subjects would be appropriate here given certain details but trust me, with my mouth, if YOU were here I’d have no qualms about sharing face to face … Anyway, this friend told me that after everything I’ve been through I’m not angry at life, or bitter, and I don’t think the world owes me. And I’m thinking, “Angry? Why? Who’s fault was it? Stuff happens.” “Bitter? Bitterness would accomplish what, other than destroy this precious moment that I’ll never get another shot at?” “Owed something? I worked for everything I ever earned, that’s how life works. Those things I received that I didn’t work for were gifts, are gifts to be thankful for, nothing more, nothing less.” So that anyone would even say something like this, well, look at the title of this post.

I have a friend, a Vietnam vet. He was a Marine, still is on the inside, and a medic in ‘Nam. (I call him a nurse. I enjoy the reaction. ;-)) He crawled out on the battlefield, elbow crawling under bullets flying, the guys behind him yelling, “Doc! Don’t do it!” He went anyway and brought the wounded back. This guy is my friend and I’m proud that he is. One day he said that I was his hero. ???!!!

I have a friend, a local artist. A good artist too. I joke and tell folks he’s half Methodist and half Buddhist but its surprising how much we agree on. We talk about lots of different things. Stuff that’s basic to the meaning of life, about as serious as you can get, and all that stoopid guy stuff that’s the bane of polite conversation. He is one of the most gentle and honest souls I know. He keeps telling me how much he has gotten out of watching me go through fill-in-the-blank.???!!!

It doesn’t take a hero to do the next right thing. It doesn’t take a saint to set a good example. Life’s meanness doesn’t have to make us bitter or sad or angry or “entitled”. It’s not about me or what I’ve been through or what I’ll go through. For some reason, humor me, I feel to get this out. Just want to set the record straight. So what IS it all about???

It’s ALL about HIM. It’s about HIS example. It’s about what was done TO HIM. It’s about what HE did. It’s about HIS having given up willingly what was rightfully HIS, what HE WAS TRULY ENTITLED TO. It’s about LOVE. It’s not about anyone else, not me, not you. It’s about getting me and you out of the way in order to make room for HIM. Make room for HIM where?

“Behold, I stand at the door and knock … ” That door He’s knocking at? It’s just to the left of your sternum, there in your chest. The heart. Our part is to let HIM in and let HIM do. Anything else, all the rest that LOOKS like it’s about us? That’s HIS strength and love working in and through us. All that we can donate to the process is our free will. And THAT’S what it’s all about.

Published in: on December 22, 2012 at 8:45 pm  Comments Off on Blown Away  
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